Since October I’ve not been able to spend much time in the studio. But I’m baaaaack! This week, I was able to spend two full days in the studio.
No matter how long I’m away from the easel, it’s always the same – I have resistance, doubt, struggle. It’s sometimes hard to silence the inner critic, but I’ve learned to let it rage and paint anyway. Eventually the critic quiets down and something new emerges on canvas. The trick really is to show up.
Right now, I have a conversation going on in my head about what to paint . . . the subject matter. I’m primarily an intuitive painter – typically slapping paint on canvas in a messy way then finding images to pull forth and refine. In other words, I normally don’t compose my paintings in any way.
However, I do long to paint certain images – tribal and ethnic themes being my greatest interest. This conversation in my head can cause me to move into perfectionism, making me stiff with the paint brush, when I desire looseness and freedom.
So this season in the studio, I’m letting myself play and experiment. I’m changing things up . . . using giant brushes and new color combinations . . . painting flat instead of vertically on an easel. I may paint while seated on the floor next week – like I did before I had the space of a warehouse studio. Whatever it takes to loosen up and let it flow, I’m showing up.